Zafrand's · Hideaway

I was told last night by my bubby...yes the same bf that I had the last time i wrote. The best guy in the world...that I haven't updated in a long time. well, that just won't do.

There are a lot of things I haven't talked about in this journal that I really should talk about. Though, its not like anybody reads this. lol.

Let's see, I am currently writing chapter 16 in hidden wolf. its almost done and ready to post.

I am graduated from high school and trying to make my way in this "real" world even though the economy is striving against me. *sigh*

I still have many great friends who helped me through my school life and are still great friends now.

I really don't feel like making a huge journal entry today. I'll come back at another time and give you a great long entry about all my friends.

Oh and me and my bubby live together now. Next step is marriage when he can actually afford a ring. lol.

lol. well, I'll write again soon. I promise. especially since I'm writing hidden wolf more often.

It's been a long time since I've confided in this journal. I think its about time I pick it up again. *sigh* things have been a little stressful lately. the main reason I'm writing today.

I guess first I can start with my parents. I love them to death, but my mom and dad are getting on my nerves. I don't know what happened, but apparently my mom's credit card that I use for gas came back with a $200 payment for one month. Now, I can almost understand if I was like trailing around without thinking. Driving everywhere possible, but I wasn't. I was going from school home everyday. The only time I ever vired off that course was to by crickets for my pet which is a necessity! and that isn't even that far off course! so, I don't know. I don't know if my mom is exagerating again about how much my car spends on gas even though it gets like the same gas milage as my old car which, mind you, is like 30 miles to the gallon if I'm driving right! which, I'm a safe driver and all. I don't take off fast, I don't speed and...I just don't know. I really don't know what my parents want from me. I don't do anything behind their backs, I'm searching for job even though its driving me nuts cause I've put in like 10 applications and updated them for months without any calls back! I do my best to save gas even though I live a good 45 minutes away from my school! I don't know what else they want from me? would they be more happy if I was one of those pissy teenagers that say "I hate my f****** parents" everywhere I go and dress in black clothes and get into fights with them over the littlest things? I just really don't know any more.

And wait, there's more....

I have the biggest project of my high school education rolling closer and closer. It's a presentation...FUN!! I appsolutely hate presentations!! And to top it all off its in front of a panel of people I've never even met who are complete experts in the field I'm going to be talking about! It's some freakin crap. it really is. I don't know what to do. I'm so freakin stressed out right now I don't even know. I don't feel well and I keep snapping cause i feel like crap and I'm so freakin stressed. I just have no idea what to do. I'm not going to say I want to die or anything cause I don't. I have a good life other then this stress. my family does love me and I have a loving and understanding boyfriend who I intend to marry. but I just don't know what to do right now. I feel outrageously stressed. and I told myself i would try not to be stressed this year. not working. *sigh* well, that's all I can really say without repeating myself, which no one wants to hear.

This is zafrand, closing yet another useless post and hoping that I can restart hidden wolf, midnight wolf and my actual private story one of these days. which i've been so meaning to do. its been like a year, but no one really knows how my life has changed through this past year. things are a little different. I'm not the girl who can sit around home all day and do nothing. anyways, ttyl peoples! bye.

Ever had a day out that left you speechless? well, for me, that was Saturday.

My BF and I made plans to spend the day out in town.

He started off by meeting me at an amazing little shp called the Black Dragon. A shop that has everything I could ever love and so much more. From dragons to fairys and beyond this little shop is like the perfect retreat for me.

After we looked around there for a bit, we wandered over to the mall. we looked around in the shops, but I think we spent the most time trying to locate one of those little coin donation things where you put the coin in this bowl thing and watch it race around and around until it falls through the center.

Well, after we wandered the mall for a while we rolled back across town to walmart where we continued our pointless wandering until we finally decided it was time to eat.

for lunch we decided on the place his mother works: Stake n' shake. To say the least our budget is poor so that was the best we had. He paid for both our lunches and two shakes. mmmm. it was good.

Finally we choose to go see a movie. Charlets web (you aren't grading me on spelling so shush). We had time to kill before hand, but that was aimless wandering that doesn't need much talking about. Finally, the movie came around. The movie was showing in a tiny theature that was so carefree they didn't even check our tickets! lol. that's somethign I'm not used to.

Well, the movie was great and of course it was enevitable that I spent a good amount of it with my head on his shoulder and his arm around me.

Of course, the best part had to be the end of the movie when he just as if on cue kissed me on my head. Actually, I was so caught up in the moment, I can't even recall where he kissed me I just know it wasn't my lips. And just after he kissed me, I reached up and, without even thinking as if I had met to do it all day, I kissed him on the cheek and told him thank you for an amazing day.

To say the least, this day was something I will forever charish. He is an amazing guy who is just fun to be around. I don't think I could trade him for anyone else. My heart just wouldn't allow it. I must say it was like a fairytale come true.

Chapter 7 of Hidden Wolf is up! The chapter is long and fluffy! I'm very proud of myself.

Okay, asside from that, many things have happened since I last wrote. I got a boyfriend, I dumped the boyfriend and we're still friends. It's a complicated experience that I really don't wish to relive twice. So if you want to read the journal on my myspace that holds this info you can find my myspace at

www.myspace.com/forgottensorceress

Okay, other then that I'm fine and doing well. I'm sunburnt, but i'm doing well! lol.

why do we trust people when they do nothing but talk behind our backs in turn hurting us from a distance. Why do we even try to communicate with other people if we're only going to be faced with harsh words and harmful acts. Why can't people just say things to our face instead of behind our backs. Why are people such cowards....

Why am I writing this? I have no clue. lol. I just feel really weird, so I'm going to write to thin air about useless stuff.

To start with I have found a new anime that has caught my attention. It's called Samurai Deeper Kyo (I think. Yeah, that's what they guide says). It's really good! I've only seen the first episode, but it's caught my attention. lol.

I've been in a crazy mood since yesterday, which isn't very good. Tomarrow I have to go and get my schedual, meet my teachers and stuff like that at my new school. I can't be crazy! Well, I could be, but I don't think I should allow myself to be crazy. I don't know. Yesterday, I actually wrote a comedy chapter in my story! I never do that! my stories are usually dark! What's happening to me?! I've finally cracked! Well, going crazy wasn't a long trip for me, but I always thought it would be a path in a dark world, covered with a thick fog. It was actually a very scenic route. There were trees and flowers and foxes and wolves and dragons...dragons? Wait!! Dragons!!! TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!! *runs after dragons*

Kakashi: And that's the end.

Sakura: Shouldn't we go after her?

Sasuke: Why?

Kakashi: She'll come back.

Naruto: How do you know?

Kakashi: *sighs* She's like a boomerang: You keep throwing her away, but she always comes back and hits you in the head.

lol. That was a poetic subject. Anyways, I just wanted to start off by saying: I'M LONELY I'M SO LONELY...yeah, blah blah blah. Whatever the rest of that song is.

Well, I told my readers on fanfiction.net that if I was taking a long time updating, I would use this site to say why.

Well, here's the news:

Midnight Wolf: I posted an update today!!!!

Hidden Wolf: I've started on the new chapter at long last. And to the person who said a-b-c-d-e-f-g-h-i will kill your family if you don't update. You need serious help!!!

Shineton: This has been difficult. First off, I made Luna lose her memory and now I don't know how she lost her memory! Second, I'm having such a bad writers block when it comes to that story, that I've actually considered deleting it. But don't worry, I'm not deleting it! I can't! You guys like it way too much!

In other news:

I'm starting school next week!!! Let the countdown begin! Monday is the first day of school! I have orientation (sp?) on the 2nd.

School means that there will be WAY more time in between updates then I would like normally. I'm going to try to give each story a really good update before school starts (nice long updates). That way I can keep you guys occupied for a little while. That means, Midnight Wolf will be getting another update this week (I want to get them on that freakin mission already!). Hidden Wolf will either have two updates this week or one really really long update (Most likely the second one). And yes, Shineton will be updated! Though, I don't know what its going to be like. The update might be short, but if that's the case, I'll try to get another update up quickly after it. Okay, that's about it.

I NEED SOMETHING TO DO!!!! or at least I need to smack my creative side around so I can update my fanfics! I've been suffering from writers block over and over for weeks now! It's like my creative side has gone on vacation! Luckily for me, it decides to be merciful and send me ideas sometimes, but its usually not enough! To top it all off my computer is stupid and we've been having horrible lightning storms that keep me off the computer because my dad is afraid of our brand new computer frying!

*breaths hard for a few seconds before smiling bright* okay, I feel better. On the upside, I've gotten three reviews for my brand new Naruto fanfic called The Hidden Wolf. Funny enough, they all said the same thing: "I've been waiting for a story like this." Well, I guess that means I did something right. Hopefully I can keep them coming back for more.

In other news I've been waiting...and waiting...and waiting for velf to update her fanfic!!! It's the best Spirited Away fanfic I've ever come across!!...well, actually its the only Spirited Away fanfic I've ever read, but she kept me hooked! That's what really matters! Now I just want her to update! I'm trying not to be rude because she has a life and all, but I get crazy when I become attached to a story and I can't read what happens next! I become very impatient and needy!! *sigh* but I have to be fair. It's not like I haven't waited a long time before updating! One time I waited like five months before updating. But that was because of school. I really felt bad for doing that to my readers and was happy to see them come back when I updated. Though, I did recieve a lot of flames. lol.

Anyways, right now I'm trying to get the second chapter down for The Hidden Wolf and I'll be working on the next chapter for Moonlight Demon as well later on today. I think I'm going to wait to update my One Piece fanfic, Shineton. I need at least one more review before I do that. Though, I guess I can work on it so I don't keep them waiting. lol. I also want to see about posting an old Harry Potter fanfic on Mugglenet, or maybe I'll work on a new HP fanfic because I definatly have an idea for one. Though, I need to stop writing new fanfics! I'm taking up too much time!! I still have things to read! I promised my friends I would read their stories so I need to get around to reading those! I guess I'll do that tomarrow. For now, I need to really start working on my own fanfics. *sigh* I should be going now. Until next time.

Kakashi: Yeh, bye guys!!!

Zafrand (turning around): What are you doing here?!

Kakashi (looking angry): I just wanted to say hi!

Zafrand: *sigh* We only do the comic relief thing at the end of stories! This isn't a story!!

Kakashi: So? It's not like we ever do one anyways.

Zafrand (smacking Kakashi across the head): This is a journal! We don't do this type of thing!

Kakashi (pulling down his mask and sticking out his bottom lip): please!!!

Zafrand (reaches under desk and pulls out a squirt gun): I said no!!

Kakashi runs out of room with Zafrand trailing behind.

Naruto (laughing): now I can take over!

Sakura (smacking Naruto across the head): You can't take over!!

Sasuke (pushing Naruto aside): Then I'll take over. Zafrand's a complete loser anyways! I'm mean, who uses their own characters name as a penname?

Zafrand (walking into the room, breathing hard): Me!!!! Get out of my chair!!! (raises squirt gun)

Sasuke (reaching under desk and pulls out squirt gun): Bring it on!! (squirts Zafrand) Oh, and that's not water!

Zafrand (looking confused): What is it? (smells herself)Sprite? *sigh* That's lame.

Sasuke (looking angry and pulling out another squirt gun): Fine, I was being nice! You should know (does evil laugh) this ones full of root beer! (squirts Zafrand)

Zafrand: *sigh* your wasting perfectly good soda!! (licks her arm) but it tastes good together. (runs after Sasuke who jumps out the window. Zafrand follows)

Sakura: *sigh* until next time.

Welcome one, welcome all to Zafrand's Hideaway. You might be wondering slightly about the name, so let me explain. Zafrand is my username both here and on Fanfiction.net. In real life my name doesn't even begin with a Z and I'm a female. Zafand is a character I made up years ago. He started off in a story called Dragon Master where he was, as the name suggests, a master of dragons. Well, the story went downhill and I soon gave into the fact that it was going nowhere fast, dispite the fact that all my friends liked it. Now, Zafrand is a dragon. My latest story is called Dragon Eye. Now, Zafrand is no longer the main character, but he is very important. lol. But I'm not going to say why. The story's complicated to explain and I don't post my ideas about my books just anywhere.
Now, why do I use the name of a fiction male? Because, he's all mine. Zafrand was the first real name I made up and the first real character, to me, that came to life in my mind. Not to mention, he used to be the spitting image of my dream guy. lol. Well, now he's my all time favorite mythical beast. Yes, I love dragons! You can add that to my likes. I collect anything and everything dragon. Now, for the second part of the name "I live through the eyes of a dragon". Can you figure out what I mean? Well, as I said, Zafrand's a dragon now. So, really, I live through the name of a dragon. I used through the eyes of a dragon because it has to do with Dragon Eye. lol. I'm still not saying anything about the story. It's not to be mentioned on the internet. Sorry, but I don't trust those whom I do not know.

Anyways, aside from that, I live in the middle of nowhere in possibly the hottest and most boring state. Can you guess how I feel about it? I plan on moving up north. I prefer the cold and I've taken a liking to snow.
I have five loves: Reading, Writing, Anime, Dragons and Kakashi (all Naruto fans will understand that).
I read a lot. Probably my all time favorite book series is Harry Potter. Yes, I'm a Harry Potter freak, get over it. I also read many other things too. I could sit here and list them, but that would take up a lot of time, so I'll just say this: I love anything with a good storyline, a lot of action and a hint of romance (sometimes more then a hint. Depends on what mood I'm in.). I only read and write fantasy and fiction. The reason? Real life bores me. Listen, I'm insane, okay. I'll admit it! I live in my mind. I'm like a lot of writers: I keep to myself, talk to myself and yes, I answer myself. If you can't live with the craziness then you will never understand me. Now, I'm not a complete loner. I do have friends who keep me, if only slightly, sane. Without them and my family I fear I would slip into a world all my own and lock out anyone and everyone.
I have a few stories posted on websites. To check out my Naruto and One Piece fanfics go to: www.fanfiction.net/~zafrand

To check out one of my original stories go to:
www.fictionpress.com/~mordoc

By the way, mordoc is a vampire I created a long time ago, but he's not as special as Zafrand.

Now, as for anime. I love anime!! I have seen many anime on tv, in the movies and through netflix (dvd rental). I'll only list the ones on TV: Naruto, One Piece, Zatch Bell, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist (but it's over now. I just wanted to make it clear that I saw it on tv.), Yu-Gi-Oh (also over. I sadly, though never saw the last few episodes!), Yu-Gi-Oh GX (not as good as Yu-Gi-Oh, but I can't seem to let it go), oh and there's one on Adult Swim that I can't remember the name of. Hey, I never said I had an excellent memory. The only manga I have really ever read is Naruto, but I plan on changing that. Can you tell I like Naruto? lol. Kakashi Rocks!!! Oh, and my all time favorite anime creator(not all too sure what you call him exactly) is not the guy who wrote Naruto (though I do love his work) but Hayao Miyazaki. I have never seen a movie of his I haven't loved with all my heart. My favorites are Spirited Away and Howl's Moving Castle.

Oh, and aside from my reader, writer and anime freak life, I'm a Band and Computer Geek!!! lol. I'm more of a Band Geek right now, though. Yes, it's okay, I'm with the band. And for all my band people who might run across this somehow: I SEE BAND PEOPLE!!! lol. If your familiar with the girl who says this and "I blame short people" all the time, then you now know who I am, but shhh. lol. I doubt that anyone I know will find this, though. I don't plan on telling anybody about this.

Well, there are some interesting facts about me. lol. Or maybe not so interesting, but its a matter of opinion. Well, until next time.